Good evening everyone,
Well, here it is. Another Monday night, another runny nose, but there is a twist with this one. I have the biggest headache ever. Thankfully the meds are taking care of it, I just cannot focus on getting my lines for my presentation tomorrow. It may be fun. The other part of this shannagains is that the headache is tensing up my neck. I dont remember if I have ever had this bad of a headache. But that is enough complaining for one evening.
So, I have been relying on God a lot more lately. Most of today, I have been reading my script, its 20 verses from Ezekiel. The remnant is out in Babylon, and God is tell Ezekiel to tell the people that He is still God. Yes God is still God. Its one of those, yea, I can see where Israel is coming from. Then I hear a small voice saying, "Daniel, I am still God." When everything is not what you think it should be, God has a plan to bring you back to the promised land. I know that when God is speaking to Israel, I can take it and know he is talking to me.
It is still a day to day thing, trying not to get bitter. I know there is someone out there, somewhere in this world, that God has for me. I just am left wondering, do I need to change how easily I forgive people. I have been praying about this, since March and I know that God has forgiven me when ever I ask for it. It is one of those, I know I need to do this, but I have been hurt by trusting people who have shown themselves not trustworthy. I know I am not trustworthy. So, am I going to be like the king who lets the debt go, or the slave who was forgiven for lots, and wants everything from another. This is hard to say, I will leave myself vulnerable, for the sake for Christ. For my life is redeemed from an unrepayable debt.
Right now, literally, as I wrote that, bitterness lost a grip on my heart. I finally just gave it to God. Prayerfully, I enter this next part of my life with Adonai, and only holding onto him.