I'm Home for Christmas

Merry Christmas!!!
So at the moment, I am sitting in the living room of my parents house. I am at home, relaxing, enjoying my break from school. Don't get me wrong, I like school. The tree in front of me, music on the television, it is nice to know that I can be here, my life the way it is because of Jesus Christ. With each passing year, it becomes less about how much I open, but what I do. I love doing devotions. God speaks, He really does.
Tonight was the first of the gathers of the season. It was awesome, family, supper, games. Just the blessing of spending time with them. God really blessed me.
So remember, not just think about it. Jesus is the reason for the season. (Even if we have our timing off)

Blessings,
Daniel

Coffee Break

So here we are, Monday evening, I am taking a break from studying. My roommate is pretty tired, so I started to make some coffee. Decided to take this picture. It was like this, I liked the way it looked. A few more moments, then finish up coffee. Then back to studying. Have my Corinthians exam tomorrow morning. Then driving back home for Christmas. This year has a twist to it that it hasn't for many years. There is my family gatherings only. I was thinking about this yesterday. I only need to go to two things. Little slower this year. I like it, but I need to wake up my roomie. Blessings, and Merry CHRISTmas.
Dan Van

Doing my best Buddy Holly

So this weekend was our Christmas banquet here on campus, The theme was he 50's. It was a good time full of food, swing dance music, greasers, jocks, mobsters, poodle skirts and even a fire. Nice way to finish of the semester. I was going to go as Danny from grease, but my hair at this point is not long enough. So it was my best Buddy Holly impression. Got some guff about not getting rid of my gotee, but I am not ready to part with it yet.

Oh the gotee. I think its awesome, most people don't, but eh its my face right. But need to go study, Peace.

Dan Van

Hello,
Today is going awesome. Unlike the other day, when I wanted to put my head through a wall, today started off with a bang. Woke up and God was already at work. Then breakfast and getting ready for the day. Usually when I go to class, I am almost a wake, but today was like nothing before, no coffee or caffeine before hand, but I was awake and bouncing around. So with coffee in hand finished up classes. I am now done till after the break. Have an exam tomorrow, a weekend, then three more on Monday and Tuesday. Then hit the road to come home.
So yea, today is good. God has granted it to me, and I am LOVING IT!!!!! Still gagged when I went on Facebook and saw a status update. Whatever though, what is done is done. So yea chatted with an old friend yesterday and that was good.
But I need to go study, Blessings
Daniel

Head/Wall, Not usually a good combo

Good day,
Some days I find easier to put my head through a wall, then think straight. I am pretty sure that this is the effects of have not staying single for an extended amount of time after my last couple of relationships. It has only been a month and a half, but sometimes feel like much longer than that. The whole struggle with finding everything in Christ is really a day to day thing. I miss things about being in relationships, but I know for now, that I need to be single. I need get right with God, and not want to put my head through a wall every second day. This gets hard, when habits of knowing that someone is always there kick in, but when that person is not there. Have I been hiding in relationships from who I really am. Am I still dealing with needing to feel loved? Some days it feels like it, others I know Jesus is with me. I know that my family loves me, I know there is love all around. Why do I feel like I need a girlfriend to feel loved? Well the train keeps moving, and lets see whats around the next bend.
Blessings,
Dan Van

Apple Cider and Medicine

Good evening everyone,

Well, here it is. Another Monday night, another runny nose, but there is a twist with this one. I have the biggest headache ever. Thankfully the meds are taking care of it, I just cannot focus on getting my lines for my presentation tomorrow. It may be fun. The other part of this shannagains is that the headache is tensing up my neck. I dont remember if I have ever had this bad of a headache. But that is enough complaining for one evening.
So, I have been relying on God a lot more lately. Most of today, I have been reading my script, its 20 verses from Ezekiel. The remnant is out in Babylon, and God is tell Ezekiel to tell the people that He is still God. Yes God is still God. Its one of those, yea, I can see where Israel is coming from. Then I hear a small voice saying, "Daniel, I am still God." When everything is not what you think it should be, God has a plan to bring you back to the promised land. I know that when God is speaking to Israel, I can take it and know he is talking to me.
It is still a day to day thing, trying not to get bitter. I know there is someone out there, somewhere in this world, that God has for me. I just am left wondering, do I need to change how easily I forgive people. I have been praying about this, since March and I know that God has forgiven me when ever I ask for it. It is one of those, I know I need to do this, but I have been hurt by trusting people who have shown themselves not trustworthy. I know I am not trustworthy. So, am I going to be like the king who lets the debt go, or the slave who was forgiven for lots, and wants everything from another. This is hard to say, I will leave myself vulnerable, for the sake for Christ. For my life is redeemed from an unrepayable debt.
Right now, literally, as I wrote that, bitterness lost a grip on my heart. I finally just gave it to God. Prayerfully, I enter this next part of my life with Adonai, and only holding onto him.
God Bless
Dan Van.

Promises

Promises are meant to be kept. It hurts more to be lied to about it being broken though. I poured out everything I had. Fought with every fiber of my being. I have been left thinking, Am I trusting of those who have hurt me in the past?

God is with me. Giving me peace, my place to hide, fulfilling my deepest needs. It is still a daily struggle to walk with Him with all that I am, but fortunately He is uber forgiving. He has paid for my sins, and promised to never leave me. He is close, even when I am far. I feel Him with me every morning. The blessing of just feeling His presence is amazing. I thank Him for where He has put me.

What happens next in my life? Not sure, but do know that it will be fun.

Peace,
Dan Van